Finding Normalcy.

To say that our lives have been crazy is an understatement! It is amazing how one's routine can become so important to them. Specifically to me. Our lives were so scheduled prior to Brenna's arrival and I don't think I really appreciated it for what it was until now. Of course that is to be expected when a little one comes along.
Brenna is getting better in terms of sleeping through the night. Last night I feel asleep on the couch with her on my chest and we stayed there for about 6 hours! She would have lasted longer but I figured she needed to eat, plus my arm was in pain! She is getting bigger and gaining a lot of weight...she has gained 2 lbs since being home!
I think it's a ridiculous time of the year anyway with the holidays and all. I have never been a fan of the hustle and bustle of the holidays and find it all quite depressing actually. I try to stay away from the malls and giving birth has been a great reason to stay away! It has become so commercialized and it's all about 'more, more, more' in terms of gift giving...I hate all the catalogs I get this time of year.
But I love the holidays and am excited this year to have Ella actually getting it. She has seen Santa, as you all saw. The first time was a couple weeks ago when my mom and I were at the mall. The Santa was completely lame and barely spoke to her but she was so excited and proud of visiting with him. I was a little choked up. I was feeling a little postpartum that day too so that didn't help! (As evidenced by my hysteria when we came upon a group of high schoolers singing Christmas carols. All I could do was hold Ella and cry. They noticed and couple looked concerned...poor kids.)
Anyway, routine. I know it's coming. Maybe that's what I will ask Santa for this year. The misperceived safety of a routine...